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[Feb. 2nd, 2010|12:05 am] |
HO is finally over! Although it kinda sucks that we lost to the third by 0.003 points, all of us are still pretty damn proud of the routine that we put up!
From a bunch of people who almost completely knew nothing about cheer, we've trained damn hard and come thus far. I'm a proud mummy of the team! (:
Truth be told, before HO I was feeling a lil' zzz about cheer. Because I've been stuck at being a power mid tier for far too long, and no matter how hard I worked and how much effort I put in, I'd only be good as a mid tier. And although nobody says it, I know that another flyer who can be both a mid and a top can easily replace me for any routine... And even though I've put all my heart in to learn the layout and got it (hardly perfected, but still.), its not going to be used anyway. It's just really zzz to work so hard for something for 2 years and... I guess I only have myself to blame for being so heavy though.
Perhaps its the team spirit that I felt, perhaps because I got to play a more important role in the hall routine, I don't know. But I feel more hopeful now about cheer, its like I feel like doing more again! Although I don't want it as much as I did (I guess I kinda gave up), but at least I feel a lil' bit of it coming back...
And I'm kinda excited about group stunts! I finally can learn more stuff (: Although a part of me feels insecure, unsure, and scared that I won't be able to do the things that I set out to do... But at least, its a chance for me to try to upgrade (: Thanks meow for talking to me, I know I'm constantly inferior and its zzz talking to emo people haha. Really appreciate it (:
Also, seeing all the tiny flyers in hall made me feel like, super envious!!! Why can't I be as small as them :( I'd work DAMN HARD and be the best flyer if I had their size man! Sigh... I guess there's no point wishing hoping and still keep EATING!!! Can somebody just kill my appetite?
But really, thanks Xtreme for giving me hope once again. (:
(And of course, thanks Mr. Yeo, for being my boyfriend, my coach, my daddy, my drive, my motivation, my everything (: )
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